Doctor Pie and the Flower Grenades.

I was planning to start writing here again, infact, I actually wrote a long entry a week ago. But I never finished. Go figure. Somehow, it's like I only think of this place when I'm having a nostalgic trip. (When it comes to writing, I still read all of your journals!) At those times, I start a new entry, get interrupted with something and then never finish. Put it on ice, maybe almost forget about it, have another "trip" and I'm back.

History repeats itself.

Anyways, what I came here to say this time is that I keep a journal. A Swedish one, though, but still.
http://perfectsonnet.blogg.se 

If anyone is interested, you can always use Altavistas BabelFish. Or learn Swedish. :P Whatever you like better. ;)

So that's it. For now, for ever, I don't know.
Bye.

I am picking this up, my LJ, I just don't know where.
Maybe I will make a new one.

I forgot to tell everybody that I got my license (driving) the 7th! :) Which was monday.
It was great and today I drove for the first time on my own. I haven't dared to do that before now.
I feel super. yay. :$

And also, thank you Becky for the comment about my broken computer! :) Dad got a hold of a
Linux cd (basically like Windows) and made it work somehow. We could get into our files and
burn them on cds. I have not everything but almost everything left. The most important things.

And now, sweet dreams everybody. I'm going to bed. <3

Our computer will not start. This is a bad sign, I have my doubts about how good 2008 will be for me. Not even three days completely into it and things have already happened, and gone wrong. I can not even begin to explain how much it sucks. If we can't get the computer to start I will have lost everything. Pictures, documents, music, all I've painted etc etc. Why? Because I am not one of those smart kids who copy their things into cds in case of stupid computer break downs. But I'm gonna be. I just have to re do all the work I've done first, so that I have something to save.

Weep weep.

(The biggest weep goes to all my pictures from England and to the things I've painted, and to all my school work and... to everything else)

This is so the worst day of this year, so far. :P

To watch Legally Blonde just gives me such a nice, comforting feeling. I can just feel all the inspiration flowing out from my fingertips! I can't help but to love it so much. To develop such a confidence and grow that strong, as she does during the movie, is just a wonderful thing. It's not only inspirational, I think it can also kill a couple of prejudices.

Have you ever wished to be the popular girl in school? That pretty, cute, smart and funny girl - wanted by everybody. Well, I can easily say that I have. You look at them and you think they have it all. The looks, the boys, the grades, the friends, the bright looking future. I don't know why, but somehow you just expect them to reach anywhere and get all the great things in life without any effort or struggle. Okay, I am not guilty of fully thinking like this, I've never been quite that extreme, but I guess some girls have? Anyway, this movie is good because Elle is that girl. The cute girly girl. Though, she's expected to do something where "having a brain" isn't required. Because obviously she's both blonde and unsmart. Popular girls don't need to try that hard, they get it anyway, right? Well, not completely and that's something that I think we all realize now. But back then, when I was young, I didn't see it in this particular light. Anyway, I feel like I am losing my red thread here.

What I want to say is that I love how this story is told. The struggle for respect, and eventually the victory. Keep your mind open and the world is yours. You can have anything you ask for. Nothing good comes without an effort, but what is an effort after all? Effort is the best thing. What would it be like to be handed everything on a silver plate? I don't think I would enjoy that very much. I think it's all about the progress, knowing that you're getting somewhere. The knowledge. Knowing that you deserve everything that comes your way, all those good things are coming to you because you earned them! Sure, bad things come too, but that's just life. And life is wonderful!

Hm, in Legally Blonde studying seems so easy though. Maybe if I buy a laptop, my life will be the same way? (I wish. *dreaming on*) Dispite how much I like Elle, I keep on wondering how effective the "bend and snap" method is afterall. I can't say I have tried it, I can't say I am very likely to do so either, but perhaps there's something magical about it. Charm and capture your McDreamy right from the first... snap!
Could be revolutionary.

On a much less serious note, I just had the best ice cream ever. Delicious!

I thought of something so great to write about last night, but I don't remember it now. It'll come to me later, I'm sure. Mally did her new cards for me and they are awesome. Proof of my soon to be super great life. :) It's inevitable, which is the best thing about it. Well, instead of just normal rambling I might as well write a little about a dream I had wednesday night.

I don't know where it was or anything, just picture this flurry burry thingy. Or actually, that makes no sense, picture smoke. And then, it was like I had realized the greatest thing in life,  like I finally understood how everything worked out and was put together. I was not really a person in this dream, I was just a spirit, or the whole dream was inside my head or something. That, though, wouldn't have been so bad because then the inside of my head would be way pretty. Not at all as slimey and gross like a brain. Anyway, my conclusion! See, it was like this, feelings and emotions are built of hydrocarbons!

Uh-huh, you heard me! (... Mally hearts me...)

It was awesome. I learnt so many. 85% of the dream was a voice (maybe mine? I don't know) listing different kinds of emotions. Like this;

"Happiness. Happiness contains 3 carbon atoms and 7 hydrogen atoms.
Sadness. Sadness contains 2 carbon atoms and 12 hydrogen atoms."

Etc etc. It kept on forever, with feelings and emotions I hardly knew that I could experience! (I think some were made up :P) Anyway, it made no sense, random numbers and random feelings. It was fun though, I wish it would have been true. :)

Reading it now again, it sounds like some kind of hypnosis! Speaking of that, what do you guys (anyone reading this) think about hypnosis? Do you think it could work for school assignments? Like, when you're studying you just record yourself while reading the things you need to know, and then play it all night long. Repeat. It would be played back like a million times, since sleep is like atleast 7 hours. But perhaps it would ruin the whole sleep and just make you really grumpy when you wake up in the morning. Or would it? So many questions, anyway, studying hypnosis - that should work, or no?

Maths in 10 minutes, then meet mommy and go homesies! Yay!

I feel like I have everything so sorted out right now. I've my papers in control, with paper clips. I never use paper clips. It feels good though. I could have put them into my binder but I have been real bad at that lately. I'm just glad I haven't let myself go completely! That's exactly what's going on when it comes to my body. I could need a giant training session of anything, but it's not happening. Reason: I'm sick. I've been half sick to sick so much this autumn. Daddy says it's because I don't exercise enough, well surprise! How can I exercise when I'm always sick? Vicious, vicious circle.

Friday night was such an awesome me night, I was all by myself. Well, not completely, because I wasn't home alone or anything, but I was just hanging out with myself. (And the rest of my family though, some) Anyway! I took a long long long shower, shaved my legs. Oh, please. My legs. If someone would ask me what the most dry thing on earth is, I'd say my legs. The body lotion just made it hurt so bad when I put it on. I really need to try and find an even better lotion. Sigh sigh. And I thought baby oil was going to be good? Maybe I just need to start using it more frequently, like whenever I have a free moment.

I also made dough nuts! They turned out to be pure success! I am going to make them again soon, and then with filling! Mmm.

This makes me happy.

 

If you are somehow choosing what your life is supposed to contain, before you even arrive on earth. If it's in "heaven" where you are getting ready for the big journey, picking out experiences and creating a life. How is it then that some human beings don't get to spend more than a couple of days/months/years down here?

Do they choose that? Would someone ever decide to say, "I want to be born at that place (Do you get to choose the location?) and I want to experience: 1. Having said my first words, being able to put together small, tiny sentences. 2. Learning how to walk. 3. Play in the playground. 4. Eat my first candy. 5. Go to kindergarden. My death will be at the age of 3."

Today there is an article about the tragic death of a grandmother and a grandchild, age 72 and 3. They got run over by a car, a woman aged 72 at the wheel, at one of those places where you can cross the road. The driver says that she thought, since it looked that way, that they were going to stop and wait for her but then all of a sudden they walked right out. She couldn't stop. No other witnesses.

Did they choose that?

It would make sense, I guess. People can read palms, predict some things at least, it looks as if it's accurate a lot of times. Maybe someone could have read their palms and seen that something would happen to them. If that is true, then it's not as far-fetched as it might seem in the first place. If everything is already written and decided before we even come to earth, at least I would be able to accept that it would be possible to tell a bit of it by looking at the palm. But I don't know, I just can't see someone choosing such a short life, over a long one. Maybe there are certain circumstances forcing a person to choose it, or I don't know.

It's just really sad to see it happen.

I have nothing to do. I'm just sitting here in school doing absolutely nothing, and it's really annoying. I always end up getting so restless. It's my middle name. J to the E to the double S to the I to the C to the A, with restless in the middizzle. Okay, no one but Lisa and Camilla will get that, and it's not even funny. That, my dear friends, is how bored I am right now.

The worst thing about me sitting around waiting here is that what I am waiting for is 50 minutes of pure boredom and death. Maths, yeah. I usually like it, but everythíng is just changing. I used to have such a long list of things that I like, but now...  it's just... not true anymore. (Depressive? NO! Varied life)

B to the O to the R-I-N-G ... B to the O to the R-I-N-G

If you would listen to me singing this in my head, you would love it. I'm such a rappah, yo. Fo' Shizzle!

When I get home I'm going to bake DOUGH NUTS. For real. I have never done it before but sometimes got to be the first time. I think I will just pwn it. I found this recipe which is incomplete, so I am going to complete it by trying a little and then I am going to use it in my project. By the way, I suffer from a severe case of the OMG I HAVEN'T STARTED YET AND WE'RE HALF WAY THROUGH IT-sies. It's bad. But it's not true really either, because I did start, almost.

So, that's it.
Except I can also tell you that Illustrator is like the funniest thing ever made. <3

I so don't even do this whole writing in my journal thing anymore.
You wish you knew what that was! (This down here)
You will nevaaah! (Not true) O.O

 





You guys are so lucky to see this! Woot.

This is my first awesome work in Illustrator!

Here Mally!
I think the second one is the best one, but I don't know about you! I hope they are at least average. :( Tell  me if it's wrong or something! I did as good as I could but I don't know if I understood it all right! :D

♥ Malu, this one is for you. ♥
 

Another one and a half week. Yeah, it's a habit now. :)

I am in class, photo class, again. I always have time over. :) I thought I would just write something at least, because I am un peu bored as well. Since I am donesies with my task.

As Mally briefly mentioned in her journal a couple of days ago, we had an awesome spiritual moment. I really want to believe that what happenend is true and real and is proving that I might be able to do it myself too, but sometimes I doubt. I've made a deal with myself though, every time I doubt - I punch myself in the face. Lovely idea, works out perfectly fine.

Anyway, Maluwieekiees, I need to talk to you :$ I have a question + a situation I need to tell you about. Because your advise is the best. Oh, and by the way! Someone replied at the site that I wrote that question, and advised me to do a test at an other site. At first I felt like.. "meh, I've done that test already and it gave me nothing" But I did it anyway. And guess what! I found out so much stuff, it was really useful. Can't wait to tell you about all the stuff I want to tell you about.

For everybody who don't know what I am talking about, it's about my future. I want to be a counselor, yeah? So I've been a bit worried because I don't know what school to apply to, or anything like that. At first I thought of the pschyology programme but that one would take about 7 years before I'm done, and after that I'd have to specialize. It would take foreverrrrr. (And my grades are not even good enough for that) So I have been looking around for other options and found this social worker programme thingy. It's only 3,5 years, so it's half the time! I would have to specialize after that too, but it would still not take as long. So now I feel pretty good about the whole thing. :)

What more can I say? I am making tons of progress with my driving, it's sweet. I still feel like I am driving crap sometimes though. But, since my teacher is letting me pass at the different things, it can't be that bad. (Or it just doesn't matter)

Tonight, I will have to work my ass off with the women history assignment I began with way too late. I have to e-mail it to my teacher before midnight. I am not scared yet, I just feel... a little bit worried. I will write tonight again though, if I feel like it. I really need to start writing more here again! :) Tomorrow, I've a slippery track thingy, I don't know what to call it really. Anyway, it's obviously going to be fun, but I am a tiny nervous.

Ciaooo!

It has been a week since I last posted anything here. I've been bad. It's really not like me, okay maybe it is a bit. But that is just because if I forget (or don't feel like it) once, it'll happen again and again and again and again. And then a week flies by and here we are! My life in a nutshell. I have no motivation whatsoever to do anything at the moment, especially not boring things such as 1. school work 2. anything that requires effort.

Anyway, this is a little something... Better than nothing. :) I'll write more when I feel like it. (See you in a week or something :P)





Malu,
I mailed you super long... twice. My intention is to do the same like.. on sunday if we can't speak until then which is the most likely scenario. I really miss you and I hope you're okay. Ily.

This is so funny!


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I always wake up early. I guess it's a good thing, I had the time to watch two TV-shows, get dressed and eat breakfast before anyone (Camilla or Lisette) got up. Of course, my parents were up and gone already, but it's a bit different when you've got work waiting for you. Ugh, that just made me think about the huge essay I've got to get started with. I thought I would do it yesterday, I thought I would just do it. Just do it just do it just do it. It's not that easy though, I dislike this whole assignment with all that I am. Okay, that's harsh, but I have no motivation whatsoever. I don't know where to start and the fact that everyone else has started and is working on page 2+, sucks. Women history. It's really interesting but... yet I don't know where. I suppose that's my entire problem there, I don't know what to write first, where to find the information I need and... how to get a structure for it. It seems impossible just because that's what I am making it.

Anyway, I've got a lot to do today. Yesterday, I was working tons with my theory for the driving, and I think I did pretty well. I am going to do that some more today, I need to keep it up to date so that I don't forget anything. And next week I will just have plenty of time to work with only that, because I only have one driving lesson. :( Weep. It's real bad because the lesson is at 5:10 pm and it's pitch black by that time. But I guess it'll be a plus for my teacher to see that I can handle darkness as well. Hm, what more? I will have to get started with this history work, as well as the book I'm supposed to read... Oh, and I need to work on my halloween costume for tomorrow night! I'm thinking devil, because that could be nice, but I don't know really. If I am doing something, I want to do it well and really pull it off. :)

So, the TV-shows I was watching today were about 1. Drug addiction, 2. Surviving in the jungle. Oh, and I actually watched this thing on sharks too, and just before I went to do other things there was this model who had 5 dogs. One was a pug and it was super cute. I really want a pug one day, and a cat. All of them were pretty interesting, in their own ways. For example, the first one about drug addiction was interesting for obvious reasons. (To me, maybe not to all of you) I like those shows where they really get you thinking about it, and I realized that so many people are living such a hard life. I've got an easy life compares to most of them, and yet I sometimes struggle so much. But I take it easy, I'm changing my way of thinking so it'll be alright. :)

Mom called just now and she said that I need to just get started and not only procrastinate things. That's what I'm going to do... I'll go for lunch now and after that I'm going to roll.

I miss Mally so much, I haven't heard from her in days and days and days :(
Mally, when you're reading this, I am sorry for the huge exaggerated e-mail I sent to you, I was freaking out even though I said I wasn't. Meh, I was just a mess. :$ I'm going to make time to write a new e-mail to you soon, I promise. Ily.

Oh, another thing to get started with; My project.
I think, the first thing I need to do is probably to make a list of all the other things I need to do. Yes, great to get me started. Mmm. :)